Depression with anxiety. Damn it all.
Im sat awake on a sunday night at... 11:30PM, watching sky movies with my boyfriend cos i cant sleep. Well, more like WONT sleep anyway. See... tomorrow first thing in the morning i have a Doctors appointment which WILL result in blood work.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
irrational fear of needles with blood pressure issues AND with panic/anxiety attacks...
Well, lets say it wont be a good morning. Thank god i have the day off of work so i can come home and relax in bed, like a big ol' baby.
Sunday, 15 March 2009
Wednesday, 18 February 2009
Well I Tried...
Today i went to work as normal, just with a thick layer of foundation on my forehead.
No one really noticed until I smudged my makeup while having a random itch on my forehead. From then on i got "what happened? are you hurt? has someone hit you? have you head-butted someone?" so i told the truth.
DAMN ME AND MY MOUTH. The story of headbutting someone wouldve been SOOO much better for me. But Nooooooooooo... I spilled and the 'goss' went around like damn wild fire. And after that, i hid in my office doing paperwork. Good excuse there.
By the end of my 7 1/2 hour shift, i was ready to punch someone in the face.
I dont see this going down overnight... i already prayed for that.
No one really noticed until I smudged my makeup while having a random itch on my forehead. From then on i got "what happened? are you hurt? has someone hit you? have you head-butted someone?" so i told the truth.
DAMN ME AND MY MOUTH. The story of headbutting someone wouldve been SOOO much better for me. But Nooooooooooo... I spilled and the 'goss' went around like damn wild fire. And after that, i hid in my office doing paperwork. Good excuse there.
By the end of my 7 1/2 hour shift, i was ready to punch someone in the face.
I dont see this going down overnight... i already prayed for that.
Tuesday, 17 February 2009
My Stupidity Strikes Again... (shocker)
So last night, i was going to bed and my boyfriend decided to clean out his side drawers. YAY. lol
well i was quiet and all of a sudden I heard a *shhhhlok* and turned around to find him with a little suction cup.
Apparently its for removing small flat lightblubs that are flush into the ceiling. WELL he thought it'd be funny to attack me with it, sticking it to my arms... face... neck, whatever he could see.
He thought to stick it to my forehead would be funny... which was at first. Until we realized i have a very flat forehead and it got stuck. We were giggling and he decided to try to YANK it off my head "OUCH!!!" and i had to try to lift the edge off.
AND when it was off, there was... and i quote "just a faint little circle on your forehead" as he muffled his laughes. I went to the bathroom to see that first, HE IS FULL OF CRAP! and secondly, i had a perfectly round purple spot in the MIDDLE OF MY HEAD!
We tried to ice it, and he said it was going down (while laughing still) but we now all remember the fact he's a big butt liar. And i fell asleep to wake up to it being WORSE. in fact, my makeup doesnt even cover it!
Not amused at all. definitely NOT amused. But dont worry kids, he will pay.
OH how he will pay....
well i was quiet and all of a sudden I heard a *shhhhlok* and turned around to find him with a little suction cup.
Apparently its for removing small flat lightblubs that are flush into the ceiling. WELL he thought it'd be funny to attack me with it, sticking it to my arms... face... neck, whatever he could see.
He thought to stick it to my forehead would be funny... which was at first. Until we realized i have a very flat forehead and it got stuck. We were giggling and he decided to try to YANK it off my head "OUCH!!!" and i had to try to lift the edge off.
AND when it was off, there was... and i quote "just a faint little circle on your forehead" as he muffled his laughes. I went to the bathroom to see that first, HE IS FULL OF CRAP! and secondly, i had a perfectly round purple spot in the MIDDLE OF MY HEAD!
We tried to ice it, and he said it was going down (while laughing still) but we now all remember the fact he's a big butt liar. And i fell asleep to wake up to it being WORSE. in fact, my makeup doesnt even cover it!
Not amused at all. definitely NOT amused. But dont worry kids, he will pay.
OH how he will pay....
Wednesday, 20 August 2008
Afterthought... Hmmmm
So i've been thinking and ive decided... i aint REALLY into writting my diets and depression online. lol. silly silly me.
BUT i've recently discovered an interest in personal grooming AKA makeup, hair, clothing. Just taking pride in being a GIRL. :)
BUT i've recently discovered an interest in personal grooming AKA makeup, hair, clothing. Just taking pride in being a GIRL. :)
Monday, 28 July 2008
Brand Spankin' New
Im new to the whole blogging thing but the general gist of my blogs will be tracking my daily antics of both dieting (calorie counting more like) and depression/anxiety moments. Its best for me to look at it from a 3rd person view.
Enjoy me being fat and crazy... i know i do :)
Enjoy me being fat and crazy... i know i do :)
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